The trouble is partly that I do not wish to write about my experiences, observations or opinions in the way I have. I simply can't. I can't write 'me me me'. It's too difficult to do. I feel a little lost in finding a way to share my stories.

I am waiting. I am not sure how to write just now. I am sure there is a way I am meant to do it but it has not come to me yet. My intention was to keep my faith and my blog almost separate but that is not going to work.  If you know me - you know I have recently put God first in my life. It used to be Jiu Jitsu. It's not Jiu Jitsu anymore. Jiu Jitsu is still in a high ranking position in my life but my Faith is first.

Jiu Jitsu has played a huge role in my conversion. Not just because my Professor is 100% Jesus but it's through the Bible Classes at Toronto BJJ that I found a pathway to walk along and people to support me...including my Pastor Rob Cripps who I train with and who leads the Bible classes. I have even started a new project with Paster Rob - Fighters Share Faith.

Toronto BJJ have recently also started being alot more active online so there is not as much need for me to cover the story of the academy. Through their blog, website, Facebook and twitter a new voice has arrived for them. Their own voice and I believe it is up to them to talk about what is happening within their walls.

And this year has proved challenging in writing before this happened but now it is even more so. I have felt the wells dry up. But I know I am not meant to worry about this. I just have to find the adjustment.

It's a struggle. I'm not giving up on this but I need to wait now. I'm waiting to see how God wants me to write. How can I keep writing about myself or my story in a way that gives glory to Him for allowing me to be able to do this?

...and so I will wait...I have faith a new approach will come to me...I just wanted to share this with you in case you were wondering why I am not updating my blog as regularly...